Timmy Burns

My Idea of Faith.

I feel that I owe you a few words.

I feel that statying true to yourself isn't always easy to do.

I feel that no matter how hard I try to run from my past it's always there to bite me in the ass.

I feel that my best efforts to be a great friend are often combated with my inability to connect with my feelings.

I feel that I'm emotionally underdeveloped and I'm too jealous.

I know that things that have happened to me in past relationships effect my current ones.

I know this isn't fair.

I know that I don't like to drink too much.

I know that I want to get out of this state (and maybe even this country).

I know that deep down, buried somewhere in the foundation of who I am, there are issues that I've never really resolved.

I know that although I've built myself into a stronger person that these issues still rise up and try their best to throw me off balance.

I'd like to think that my life goes through progressive stages.

I'd like to think that with each new stage I leave behind what I didn't like about myself and fill the spaces that are left with things that I do.

I'd like to think that, for the most part, the past year has happened in this fashion.

I'd like to think that my disconnection with my feelings is a good thing.

I know it's not.