Timmy Burns

Sunday, November 30, 2008


Don’t blink, you’ll never know what you’ll miss.

If I justify my life by what I can give to others, does that make me selfish?

If the tool that I use to measure the meaning of my existence is graduated by the impact I've had on the people I know, does that make me greedy?

Is there a way to truly show selflessness without seeking some sort of personal gain?

For me, I get a really great feeling when I'm able to do something for someone. It's the type of feeling that swells inside you and rises from your stomach until it gets caught in your throat. It's a feeling that makes makes tears collect in my eyes. It's joviality in it's purest form. Unrefined. Raw.

I am not the kind of guy that wears his emotions on his sleeve. The people that are close to me can cut through what's happening on the outside and know what's really going on with me, but only sometimes.

So for me to be able to engage this feeling in the way that I do, it's incredible. And it might hit me so hard because I feel that I'm not able to do enough for my friends and family, or maybe it's because I've got the emotional maturity of a 5 year old, but it makes me feel like I'm making a positive impact.

It makes me feel that I'm meant to do something big, something that will effect people in a huge way. Something that will have such widespread results that I will be able to realize them and feel this way no matter where I turn.

Maybe someday I'll get around to it.