Timmy Burns

You know last week I had this deep charge that told me to blog angrily about how I push myself to train and when my real world life doesn't allow me to make it to class or do the things I know are really important I have a right to be hard on myself. I wanted to make points about pushing myself harder than the majority of the society we live in because I value what I have more than they do. I appreciate what they take for granted. I see and acknowledge the truly magnificent things that most people look over.

Or maybe that's just more self-important bullshit. I sit here now and while I still think that I need to push myself harder than I did before I can't use everyone else as a reason. Maybe this is just the next step I need to take to move forward. I really shouldn't use anything else other than myself as a reason to do anything.

Follow the path with heart. That's what don Juan said, right? The only one who knows that the path has heart lives in this meat shell. But this ties into what I was talking about just last week - one must be honest with oneself.

So I will continue to do what I do and appreciate the existence I've been given. Hopefully with time I will learn what I need to do, if it is anything different, and it won't be too late to achieve those things.

I think I've decided to turn this blog into a look into the twisted and convoluted world that exists in my mind. I personally think it's interesting (or maybe that's more of me thinking too highly of myself) and I can only hope that someone can use this as a tool to either avoid or steer towards the right or wrong way to live.

Only time will tell the truth.. if the truth even exists.